Which is what make his claim that the WTS "tampered with him" so bizarre - it's not like he ever lived by JW rules.What he means by this is his juvenile fantasy to bang as many as he could and live the stereotypical hedonistic bachelor lifestyle. He’d have rather written a diary of his sexual escapades of engaging in threesomes and public sex than one about escaping the JWs. He feels that WT’s rules forced him to moderate this into masturbation marathons, cybersexting and visiting prostitutes.
What I noticed in his book was his constant declarations of love for his wife, yet nowhere in there does he explain the why other than two other pioneers wanted her and it became a competition. He doesn’t really speak too much about her personality and what attracted him to her other than her gentle and forgiving nature, always eager to play peacemaker and avoid conflict.
I think he saw a sucker he could manipulate and Lloydsplain all the betrayals away as the actions of a great but flawed man who’s trying his best in the wake of the tragedy of his mum passing. In fact I think he used his mum’s death as a wedge to connect with her regarding the tragic loss of her brother. It’s how manipulators work. Once he got her talking about her brother he immediately switched it to his mum and cue the forced tears.
Later on down the line or possibly when she first caught him he starts into these pity sessions of threatening suicide. The pattern continues until she’s so beat down she doesn’t want to confront him anymore.